Whats in my head?

Okay so it’s not really something in my head it’s just what I’m thinking about today. As of right, now I have two herniated discs in my back. It’s something I need to get taken care of.  My doctor wants to do surgery I just can’t afford it at the moment. Everyday I’m in the same pain my back feels like somebody has their  fist grabbing onto my spinal cord and squeezing the ever living hell out of it. My legs, they feel hollow, I don’t know how to explain that really but that’s how they feel. Because of the herniated discs I’m stuck at the job I’m at because the insurance I get through them will pay for the surgery. Its a good job and all but money is not everything. Especially when your health is involved.
After I get that taken care of then I have to get my teeth fixed because they’re all messed up from drinking way too much soda as a kid and a little bit of genetics, but after all of that is said and done I want to travel to Japan. That’s where I’ve always wanted to go. It’s just one of those things I feel like my soul is pulling me there and it’s something I want to do and something I feel I need to do,  but the dilemma comes in that I have a daughter and I’m a single parent, well her mom is involved in her life but she’s not the custodial parent so i take care of her all the time except every other weekend. That just kind of makes it harder for me to figure out how to go about getting there. I might have to wait till after she’s out of the house to go but that’s another 12 years from now. I hope its not that long I mean I really want to go, like I said it something I dream about constantly and im
always think about it. But we’ll see how it goes.
That’s what this whole blog is about , to see where my future takes  me, my daughters future, how my health improves or gets worse. But I guess that’s the end of this blog  so if you have any comments or suggestions let me know.
Have a great tuesday or whatever day you’re reading this


2 thoughts on “Whats in my head?

  1. Maybe you could take your daughter with you, it’d definitely be worth considering as Japan is a beautiful country and a trip could open up your daughter’s eyes to the beauty of the culture. Plus it can be a very colourful country with ‘kawaii’ aspects that could appeal to your daughter such as the owl and cat cafes and cosplay costumes because what girl doesn’t love dressing up haha. I hope you get to go one day πŸ™‚


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